Saturday, July 31, 2010

Popsicle Round -up.

I've been on this homemade Popsicle kick lately. I guess mostly because it's so hot here and a popsicle is just about the best treat at the end of a hot day.

First up, I made lemon buttermilk popsicles. I know - it sounds like a strange combo, but the creaminess of the buttermilk was delicious with the tang of the lemon. I put a little extra lemon in these, and they were a little on the tart side. But I still liked them, although next time I'll make sure I don't add the extra.

Next, I tried the mocha popsicles. I used really strong coffee and some good cocoa. They are nice and mocha-y, but I don't like to have these late in the day since they do have caffeine in them. But they are tasty and only 2 points on WW, if you use fat free sweetened condensed milk. (For anyone who cares about that.)

My absolute favorites, though, are these blackberry and cream popsicles. Blackberries have been on sale here and I used a combo of blackberries and strawberries. I mashed the blackberries and then pushed them through a sieve to get rid of all the seeds. I made 9 popsicles with the amount of berries I used, and again, these are only 2 WW points. I also just made a batch with frozen blueberries and strawberries and they are super tasty. These were even easier to make since I just threw it all in the blender, but I like the blackberry flavor better.

Anyone else out there with a favorite homemade popsicle recipe?

Lizard friend.

We met a new lizard friend in our garden the other day. He was just a tyke, so little and adorable that I wanted to bring him home and cuddle him.












He, of course, wasn't interested. He only wanted to run away from my camera and find some tasty bugs to eat.

Judah pics and a sewing project

I made Judah a new little friend yesterday. He's a sock elephant, modeled after the one seen here. I don't have the book, so I sort of winged it.












Judah loves him already.













Whilst photographing Judah and his new toy, I couldn't resist these little toes.












Or his sweet face.

Friday, July 30, 2010

Video #2

A laugh! Sorry it's sideways, but there's no way for me to rotate it.

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Video. #1

By popular demand, here is Judah live on video. (Ok, more like 1 person asked, but we aim to please.)
First up, Judah talking to his toys.
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Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Promises.

I took Judah on a walk this evening as has been our ritual since Jeff and I moved in this house and got a dog. Before we were pregnant we walked almost every night. While we were pregnant we walked, though a little slower, especially since every time we walked up the big hill in the front of the neighborhood I had a contraction. I actually tried walking up it a few times to induce labor when I was near my due date, but alas it didn't work.

Tonight's walk was just Judah, the dog, and I. It started sprinkling on us part way through - which I loved. It was just enough to cool us down. At the top of the big hill, I suddenly noticed a big rainbow. I tried to turn Judah's stroller around in such a way that he could see it - it was his first rainbow after all - but he hasn't yet learned how to look at things I point at or understand what I mean when I say "sky."

So I stood there, just enjoying it.

People have been so kind and gracious to us in these last few days. People always ask us how we're doing with it all. Honestly, I feel like I'm doing better than I would have guessed. The same with Jeff - I'd say he's doing much better than I had imagined he would in the face of such a disappointment. All I can say is that God has continued to give us more grace, and has not allowed us to be discouraged.

Standing in the middle of the road tonight, I felt like that rainbow was put there just for me. To remind me of God's promises. Not just that one, but the promise to never leave us or forsake us. To give us a hope and a future. To be faithful to complete the good work he started. To supply all our needs. To give us victory over death. That all things will work together for our good. That his grace is sufficient.

Tonight, I'm praising God for all those promises.

And for rainbows.

Monday, July 26, 2010

Things I'm currently loving.

Since I don't like to have sad posts up for too long....

1. Paperbackswap.com - It's this great website (which probably everyone knows about already) where you can post books you have you don't really want and trade them for books you do want. It's working out great here; I've been able to get several books I have been wanting to read for the price of postage. Sweet. An added bonus is that it is helping us clear out a little more space on our bookshelf.

2. Slowly fitting back into some pre-pregnancy clothes. I just started doing weight watchers online and so far I'm losing about 1-2 lbs/week. Basically it's just making me think a little more about what I'm eating, and is keeping me accountable to eat a reasonable amount. Since I'm nursing I really get to eat plenty, so it really doesn't even feel like a diet. But instead of having like 3 desserts in a day, I'll just eat one.

3. The way that Judah greets me every morning with a huge grin.

4. The way he'll rest his head on my shoulder and put his little hand behind my shoulder when he is just waking up. I think I've got a bit of a snugglebug on my hands.

5. Hearing Judah's voice - he's really gotten much more vocal and will have these little conversations with me when I coo at him. It's funny how the smallest things with a baby are the most wonderful.

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Sadness.

I dreamed last night that my teeth were falling out.

It's actually a fairly frequently recurring dream I have - I'm not exactly sure why - but mostly seems to come when I'm feeling a little more stressed about something. I'll dream that my teeth are loose, and rotting with several cavities, and then they start to fall out. It's so realistic I can feel, in my mind, the soft spot left on the gum from having a missing tooth. I am always heartbroken and embarrassed in this dream and worried about how we are going to pay to have them fixed. When I awake, I'm constantly checking my teeth for any signs of actual decay. In reality, I have pretty good teeth - and thanks to two sets of braces - fairly straight ones.

I'm not sure why I wanted to write about it except to admit what's bothering me so much I have my teeth-falling-out dream.

Yesterday, Jeff appeared before our presbytery to try and be licensed to preach. This has been a a long time coming - we had some troubles when he first went before a committee, but then those were sort of dealt with and finally we were hopeful and excited that maybe he was finally going to be licensed, the first step towards ordination.

It was not to be. They voted against passing him - even though he did a great job, all because of an exception (or disagreement) he has with the Westminster Confession. There is one small part of it he doesn't agree with and unfortunately that one small issue happens to be a very big issue in the part of the country we live in.

We are feeling heartbroken - let down by the denomination we both have come to love and uncertain about our future and what to do from here. Jeff won't be able to continue preaching here. We are sad about what it means for our dear, sweet church we have come to love.

I was so proud of Jeff this morning. He preached (another) amazing sermon in spite of his own discouragement, and was still continuing to remind me and those around us with truth from the gospel - that God's plan is perfect, that he knows what is best both for us as a family and for our church. That to me is what makes him such a great pastor - that he can be such an encouragement even when he is sad and walking through such a dark time.

But he is good at remembering the reality. Even though it might feel like all hope is lost, like surely a mistake has been made, it's like the bad dream I had last night. The reality is that God is good. That nothing can happen to us except what passes through his hand. That his plans are to prosper us and not to harm us. And that He who did not spare his own son but gave him up for us all, how will he not, also along with him, graciously give us all things?

We just have to keep reminding ourselves to be awake to that reality.

Friday, July 23, 2010

Overdue #2.



More cute pics....













Overdue.

I was noticing that it had been a long time since I'd put a picture of Judah. Too long.













He just keeps getting cuter.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Motherhood, children, and sin.

One thing that surprised me after having Judah is that I guess I thought I would somehow feel different. I thought maybe in the hospital I'd get some kind of infusion that would make me feel like a mother. Don't get me wrong - I love being a mom. And I have become very familiar with the sleepy daze you stumble around in when you're up every 3 hours feeding this tiny person who can make such. loud. noises and clemaning all his various bodily fluids. But I still feel just like me. I thought I would be different or feel more different. In retrospect, I guess it shouldn't be too surprising. After I got married to Jeff I didn't suddenly feel different. I loved (and still love) being his wife and being married to him. But inside, I was still Aubrey.

Still being me means that I still struggle with the same sins I used to - but in addition to their effect on me, now there is this other little person involved. One thing I've always had a hard time with is comparing myself to others. Which is bad enough. Now, though, I also struggle comparing Judah to other babies. Secretly, it makes me happy if he meets some milestone before other babies I know who are his age. But I cringe and worry if it seems like he's behind those babies in doing something else.

I've realized that my own sins are going to affect this sweet baby who is always looking at me and smiling. I consistently have to remind myself that my worth doesn't come from my being better or thinner or prettier or smarter than others. And I don't want Judah to think that his worth comes from those places either. More than anything, I want him to know that he has significance because of Christ and what Christ has done. Not that I've been complacent in my sin in the past, but now there is this added urgency to ferreting out all those dusty corners of my heart where sin still has a hold because it's not just my life that's affected - his is, too. (I realize that since I live in communities with both other believers and non-believers my sin has always affected other people to some extent, but it just feels different now.)

I know I can never be the perfect mother. I know that the perfect mother doesn't exist. But I'm desperate for Judah to see God's love for him in me and through me.

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Aahhh.

I'm well on my way to being a board-certified family physician.

At least, I took the test.

Probably the last test I'll have to take for something like SEVEN years. That's seven whole years without having to take a test. I can hardly believe it. My whole life has been spent taking tests - studying, learning, and always looking ahead to the next one. But now I'm done.

Now the only tests I'll have are the ones that involve me caring for actual patients and being responsible for their health.

Yikes.

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Jeff's Pearls of Manliness

I must apologize to any male readers we have left for the two previous posts dealing with, um, ya know, the uh... the way babies eat. I will try to right the ship and get this blog back on track by talking about some manly things.

1. Grilling. What more manly way is there to cook than by setting a piece of raw meat mere inches from 26,000 BTU's of burning propane? Girls steam; Guys grill. The other day we taught a friend how to grill pizza. It's awesome. There's no raw meat involved, but there is processed meat. And processed meat is manly (and delicious!).

2. Gardening. You might not think of gardening as manly, but think again. It involves dirt, sweat, back pain, and shovels. It is a form of self reliance, and provision. And it produces things you can put on a grill. All manly.

3. Sports. Sports are undeniably manly, and what a great year for sports it has been. We practically went straight from the Winter Olympics, to March Madness, to Phil winning the Masters, to the start of baseball season, to the NBA Finals, to the World Cup, to the National League winning the All-Star Game. And now its the British Open, the only time of year when you can watch live golf coverage over breakfast! If the Cubs can turn it around in the second half of the year, then 2010 might be a truly fine year of sports.

4. Being a Dad. Being a Dad is manly. And I have big plans to teach Judah how to throw a baseball, swing a golf club, ride a bike, memorize a Bible verse, and catch a fish. The truth is, I think fishing is kinda boring, but it seems like such a classic father-son activity I'll probably do it anyway.

5. Fixing Things. Fixing stuff is usually manly, but I'm usually bad at it. hmm.

6. Theology. Despite what some say, knowing and leading in theological and ecclesiastical matters is manly. Which is good, because I'm better at this than I am at fixing things.

7. Loving your wife. Ok, now I'm just getting sentimental, which isn't manly. But today is Aubrey and I's anniversary, and I love my wife! It's been a great six years. And now we are a family of three, and having a family is manly too.

What else is manly?

Pearls, part 2.

I figured I should make this into two posts since it would be so long that no one would want to read it otherwise. (Of course, no one may want to read it anyway....) A few more thoughts:

1. Nursing can take a long time. Judah has always been a leisurely eater. He's gotten much better, but especially right after he was born he'd always fall asleep mid feed. So sometimes it would take me 45 minutes to nurse him. That's ok. But there is also nothing wrong with stripping the baby down, thumping on his feet, or doing whatever you can to keep him awake while he's eating.

2. To help Judah finish faster and get all the good hindmilk (that's the milk that comes later in the feeding - it's higher in fat so it helps keep him fuller longer), I often will squeeze the breast when his sucking has slowed down. At the beginning of the feed, the milk comes out fast, but when the flow gets slower, that's when he's most likely to drift off. So I'll get him to start sucking by rubbing his head or cheek, then squeeze. This makes it come out faster again, and he starts to suck more, and helps him empty the breast more completely.

3. Breastfeeding is all about supply and demand. The more your breasts are emptied, the more milk you will make. That's why I think that at the beginning, it's better to feed the baby when he seems hungry, rather than focus on getting him on a schedule. I'm not going to wade into the demand-feed vs. schedule feeding debate too much, but I think that when you are establishing your supply, it's good to nurse as much as the baby needs. I also started pumping after Judah would finish. This helped me get a little freezer stash plus helped ensure I had a good supply.

4. Breast milk can be stored safely for 8 hours at room temperature, 5 days in the fridge, and 3-4 months in a freezer. (6 months in a deep freeze). I was really worried about going back to work, so I made a big freezer stash. The other day we tried to use some of the oldest milk since it's about to expire, but Judah didn't really like the taste of it anymore. So I'd say get enough for a 3-4 day supply, but maybe don't worry about much more than that. Your milk's composition actually changes as the baby grows, so they may not want the milk you made several months ago.

5. You can't make him eat if he's not hungry. Some mornings, Judah will randomly eat a little less that I expect. I can tell I still have plenty of milk he could eat and I'll usually try to burp him and then see if he wants more. But sometimes he just doesn't want it. I have learned that it is ok. There is no reason to stress out about it. If he wanted more, he'd eat more.

6. If you are having trouble, call or go see a lactation consultant. I actually looked into what it takes to be a lactation consultant - I was thinking it would be something that could add to my abilities as a physician - and it really takes a lot. You have to log like 1000 hours doing breastfeeding support work before you are even eligible to take a test. Then you have to pass the test. So basically I'm saying that they have lots of experience and will almost certainly know more than your doctor about trouble-shooting problems. Sadly, we just don't learn tons about breastfeeding in med school. Don't be afraid to ask for help.

7. My best advice is just to try and relax. If you are stressed out about something, it's going to make nursing that much harder.

Friday, July 16, 2010

Aubrey's Breastfeeding pearls, part 1.

As part of my maternity leave, I had a reading elective - meaning I got to do some reading but still get credit for it and graduate on time. I read quite a few books about infant care, but most of my reading was about breastfeeding. It worked out well since I wanted to know more about breastfeeding for myself, but is also something I need to learn more about for my patients. Anyway, here are a few thoughts about some things that I've learned since starting nursing. I'm not an expert, but I do feel like I know a lot more than I used to.

(Any men who are still reading after seeing the title should know that I'm going to talk about breasts. Just so you know.)

1. One of the things that has most surprised me about being a mom is just how much I love to nurse Judah. I was worried about how hard it would be and figured I'd want to quite or get discouraged. This hasn't been the case for me. So I don't think anyone should be afraid about it. At the same time, people shouldn't feel guilty if they can't do it. If it's going to stress you out and make you miserable, it may not be worth it. Some people struggle a lot and all it does it create worries and stress. I do think that although it can be very hard at the beginning, ultimately it's easier. Breast milk is always the right temperature and ready when the baby needs it. No mixing or heating or carting around bottles and nipples and formula.

2. I think sometimes women feel that since they were built to nurse that it is going to be easy. There is definitely a steep learning curve. Do not think that right away you are going to be able to nurse out in public. It takes a while to figure out - both for you and for the baby.

3. Although breastfeeding is not supposed to be painful, I do think it's totally normal to have some pain, especially at the beginning. For about the first 5 or 6 weeks, I had pain just right when Judah latched on for the first few sucks. Then it went away as he kept eating. And I don't think this was a latch problem or meant that anything was wrong - it was just my body getting used to having him suck. So just because there's some pain or discomfort, it doesn't mean that you are doing anything wrong.

4. Latch is key. If you want to avoid as much pain as possible, you want to make sure the baby is latched on right. Most of the areola should be in the baby's mouth. Although Judah latched on well, sometimes if he's rushing he won't quite get it right. To fix it, I'll just pull down on his bottom lip or pull up a little on his top lip. That usually fixes the problem.

5. There are lots of great books out there. I thought The Ultimate Breastfeeding answer book had the most info, and was written by a doctor who's an expert in breastfeeding. (He's a man, by the way, and in the intro there is a photo of him helping this lady nurse. It made me laugh and think about the episode of The Office when Pam has a baby and her lactation consultant is a man.) Nursing Mother, Working Mother also had great info about nursing and working.

I'd love to know what other thoughts anyone else has about it... let me know!

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Weird postpartum things.

Or, things you can expect to happen after you have a baby that most people don't talk about.

1. Night sweats. Every day for probably the first 6 weeks after Judah was born, I'd wake up drenched with sweat. And then randomly during the day I'd also occasionally get hot. I'm normally the kind of person who runs cold and always like to be covered with a blanket when I'm on the couch, so this was definitely new to me. This, apparently, is very normal. I guess the hormonal changes make this happen. But do not be surprised if you wake up soaking wet.

2. Losing your hair. For the last two weeks or so, I've noticed I'm shedding more hairs that usual. Then yesterday, when I was in the shower, just running my fingers through my hair left me with a bunch of hairs that came out. (It wasn't quite enough to say it was a clump, but it was WAY more than normal.) This is also something normal. Apparently, when you give birth or even just have major surgery (I had both), more of your hair follicles go into the resting state where they don't grow. Normally you have maybe 15% of your hair in the resting state. With childbirth 50% can go into the resting state. When the new hair starts to grow, it pushes the hair that's in its resting state out. And this very commonly happens about 3-4 months later. Hence why poor Judah wakes up with mommy hairs (and a few dog hairs) on his clothes and blanket.

3. When you are healing from a c-section and mostly feel back to your normal self (or as normal as you can feel when you are feeding another human from what you produce with your own body and waking up every three hours to do it) sometimes just turning over in bed with cause you to have a sharp, almost tearing pain in the area under your incision. This is also normal. This comes from the suture they use to close the fascia pulling on the fascia which causes pain.

So consider yourself informed.

Sunday, July 11, 2010

A few of my favorite things...

Since I just had a baby, I thought I'd do a post of my favorite baby things. In case anyone cares or is trying to register.

1. Aiden and Anais muslin swaddles. These are awesome, especially for summer babies. They are really lightweight, but still big enough to get the wee one swaddled up very tight. And they have lots of cute prints. They're a little pricey, but I bet if you shop around you can find them on sale.

2. Our swing. A swing is really, really great to have and can be a lifesaver. Right after Judah was born we had a hard time getting him to sleep in his cradle or crib. But we could put him in that swing and he'd sleep for several hours. Now we've transitioned to the crib at night, but still use the swing for daytime naps and are slowly trying to get him in his crib for all sleeping. But even if he's not asleep, he is entertained in it long enough to cook dinner or get something else done.

3. Footed pajamas that ZIP all the way down the foot. My favorite are the Gerber sleep n play pajamas that come in packs of three. Like these. Although Judah doesn't wear pink ones. Zips are great because messing with snaps when you are bleary-eyed at 3am takes too long. And the gerber sleepers are nice because they are lightweight enough so that Judah doesn't get hot, but they still keep his feet warm.

4. A bouncy seat. Ours was fairly inexpensive, but has some dangly things he can look at and vibrates. Again, this is nice for some brief baby entertainment when you need to get something done. I also like we can put it on the table and have Judah join us for dinner. Ours has this one little electronic song that plays. I might recommend one that plays more than one song since when your 3 month old figures out he can pull on the frog and have it make noise, you might be hearing that one song over. and over. and over.

5. Some sort of nursing cover. I have a "hooter hider" which I use all the time. These would be super simple to make (I'm planning on sewing some for a few upcoming babies myself) using this tutorial. I would recommend one that has some sort of flannel or terry cloth in one corner to wipe the baby's mouth after they finish eating.

6. If you are going to be pumping a lot, I'd definitely recommend the medela pump in style breast pump. It's fast and honestly gets more out than Judah actually eats. I've had no problems with my supply since going back to work. There may be other good pumps out there, but I really do love this one. I also used it a lot right after he was born. I'd pump after he would eat and I think this really helped me have a good supply. Plus I was able to build up a little freezer stash of breast milk. My favorite breast milk freezer bags are the lansinoh freezer bags. They freeze the milk flat so they don't take up tons of space in the freezer.

7. The Paci. I'm a big fan of pacis and always recommend them to my patients since they decrease the risk of SIDS. We use a gumdrop paci because that's what they gave us in the hospital. Judah seems to like it and I think it's cute. I know some people worry about nipple confusion, and we did wait maybe a day to give him a paci,until after I knew he was latching on well. But babies need to suck and they need to suck for a large portion of the day. So unless you want the baby sucking on you all the time, the paci is a good option.

8. The boppy pillow. I use this all the time for nursing. I've gotten much, much better at not needing it and feeling comfortable nursing Judah without it, but it's so nice to be able to lay him on the pillow and then have a hand free when he's eating.

Well, that's the list for now. Anyone else with favorite baby things?

Saturday, July 10, 2010

Tell Garden 2010: A Midsummer Update

Well it's July and the All-Star Break is almost upon us. That means its time for the midsummer update on progress in the garden.

So far Garden 2010 is the second best garden I've ever had. Out of three. It is doing better than Garden 2009, but is nowhere near the productivity standards set by Garden 2008. I guess I must have had some beginners luck that first year, because I haven't yet been able to repeat the feat.

I only planted five tomato plants this year in an attempt to actually give them the recommended amount of space, rather than cramming in 14 like I did in '08. However, tomato production has been slower than usual, and one of the plants is going through a rebellious stage. The squash and zucchini seem to be a little bit off of last years pace, but that's ok, because last year we had more zucchini than we knew what to do with.

As for the pole beans, they look pretty cool, and I'm happy with the trellis I built, but I'm disappointed with their meager production. I thought by planting a whole row that we would be living on beans this summer, but we're yet to be able to full meals worth at once. Lot's of space, very few beans.

Finally, I will admit to several cases of plant confusion. The cantaloupe seeds I planted are growing cucumbers. I like cucumbers, but I really had my heart set on cantaloupes. Although at least I can be happy that I've already collected more cucumbers than I ever collected cantaloupes. Also the patch of sweet basil I planted turned out to be lemon basil. Which leads me to believe there might have been some sort of evil coup d'etat at the seed company over the winter and some mischievous tyrant who preys on unsuspecting gardeners switched all the seed packet labels. It's the only logical explanation.

Let's hope the garden steps things up in the second half this year, or we'll be in danger of missing the playoffs again.

Friday, July 09, 2010

Day 1 - Trial by Fire (Sorta)

A few disassociated thoughts about my day:
1. A few months ago, I agreed to round on the pediatric service in addition to rounding on the medicine (i.e. adult) service today. Our normal peds attending was going to be out of town. I figured it couldn't be that bad - kids don't get sick as often over the summer (it's not cold and flu season), so I should have plenty of time to do that and see my other patients. A usual day on the peds service for us might mean 3 or 4 newborns and 2 or 3 kids on the floor. A busy day would be 5 newborns and 5 kids on the floor. Today there were 7 newborns and 8 kids on the floor. Thankfully, the other hospitalist I work with graciously agreed to see more of the medicine patients, including all the patients in the ICU. Bless him.

2. In addition to rounding on peds and medicine patients, I also had clinic today. I'm not really sure who thought all this out, but it wasn't me. I was about 15 minutes late to clinic trying to finish up my work on the floor.

3. I probably would have had just enough time but Jeff brought Judah up so I could feed him. Seeing him is always the best part of my day. When I got home, the time until he had to go to bed passed way too quickly.

4. It was very, very odd being the attending on peds. The interns were actually giving me their formal presentations on patients. Just two weeks ago, I would have been the one who was checking patients out to someone else. I had a hard time introducing myself to patients as the attending, and the whole time I was thinking to myself, "Don't be stupid. Don't be stupid." I almost felt like a fraud - but then I relaxed and remembered that I haven't been just sitting around for the last three years. I can actually take care of patients.

5. Tonight, I'm on OB call. Also strange.

6. 1 day down, 6 more to go.

Tuesday, July 06, 2010

New Job

I'm starting my new job on friday. For the last 6-8 months, when people would find out I was about to finish, everyone wanted to know what I was doing after graduation. So I feel like I've been talking about my new job a lot, and that everyone I know has already heard about it.

I realized, of course, that even though I've been talking about, I haven't actually written about it here. So here goes:

Medicine is a great profession. It has not always been a great profession for women, though, especially women who also wanted to have families and actually be around to see their kids. Thankfully, this is changing. Now there are lots more options for working part time and job sharing in such a way that you can still be a doctor and a mom.

I feel very blessed to work at a great place that values families and children. It's also a place that is a busy practice that is getting even busier. They have hired me to work as a part time hospitalist and part time OB faculty. I'll be working full time, one week a month (7 days in a row), then during the other weeks work in clinic 1.5 days/week. I'll still be taking OB call, so I'll get to deliver babies and have my own OB patients. Since I'll also be in clinic, I'll still have my own patient census and get to do the primary care that I love.

But most importantly, I'll still get to be a mommy, and won't have to have someone else raising my baby. The weeks when I'm working, Jeff will mostly be taking care of him during the day. My mom will likely help out some as well. We may end up finding someone to help us 1 day/week or so, depending on if Jeff can get his work done while taking care of Judah. We're still figuring all that out.

One thing I'm excited about is that I'll still get to use all my skills - inpatient care, obstetrics, and clinic. I may not end up doing all three for my whole career, but I like that I'll be doing it all for now and so will have more options later. Once you stop doing something, it's hard to start doing it again.

So that's what I'll be doing starting on Friday. I'm a little nervous now that I'm the one in charge, but happy that there are lots of great colleagues around who can answer any questions I might have. Part of the reason I wanted to post this is just so that other female physicians or med students out there can know that it is possible to find part time jobs that still leave you with time to be a mom. You may not get everything you want in a job, but you can find ways out there to be both a doctor and a mom.

Sunday, July 04, 2010

A few random thoughts and photos.

Judah rolled over from back to stomach for the first time yesterday. I had put him down for bed, and then a little while later he started fussing. I waited a little while (we're trying to work on getting him to sleep better and not needing our help to get that way) but then went and checked on him when he continued to fuss. I was very surprised to see him on his stomach! He has also accidentally made it from his stomach to his back a few times- I think that has more to do with the weight of his big noggin giving him momentum to turn over. I'm realizing we're going to have to be more careful just leaving him places since he's getting more mobile.


















Judah got a bath in the sink at Austin and Elise's house - he was so cute laying there, but he barely fit. Jeff took this photo, and I just love it. I'm not sure what it is, exactly, that I love so much, but I really love it. After going to the beach, I also rinsed him off in the shower with me. I learned it's hard to shower with a baby - he was so slippery I almost dropped him, and I felt like I needed an extra hand to clean him off.












I also loved this photo, of Judah asleep one morning after I'd fed him his breakfast. He is just so sweet when he is asleep. I mean, I think he's sweet all the time, but I love watching him sleep. Don't tell my doctor, but he was sleeping so well (both in my bed and on his stomach) that I just left him. Even though I always tell my patients to always put babies down on their backs and in their own beds. Sometimes I guess my own advice is hard to follow.


















My final favorite of the vacation photos. Sweet Judah and his sweet toes. Now it's off to nap time (both for me and Judah)

Friday, July 02, 2010

Part 3 - Judah at the beach...



















We finally made it to the beach with Judah on the last day of our charleston trip.

















We are realizing that vacation with a baby is very different than vacation without one. It is just a little harder to go places in between naps and feedings. But it does mean we get to do more relaxing and don't feel like we need to cram in lots of activities.


















Of course, we got everything together and loaded, drove to the beach, let Judah put his feet in, then it started raining. So we came home pretty quickly. Judah looked very cute in his hat (Thanks, Gretchen, for the velcro suggestion) and swim trunks. I did love showing him the ocean and letting him feel the water - it's exciting that next summer he'll get to enjoy it even more.

Vacation photos, part 2. or We scream for ice cream

















We made it to our favorite ice cream place in Charleston, a fairly inexpensive place that gives you HUGE cones. We definitely miss Ye Ole Fashioned ice cream here in Greenwood...






























Cherry Amaretto - Yum....

Thursday, July 01, 2010

Vacation photos, part 1.


















Yesterday, we got to eat dinner with some good friends who also just had a baby. Sweet little Gemma is just about 5 weeks younger than Judah - and I was again impressed with how quickly they grow and change at this age. Gemma felt so light compared to holding Judah, but she was absolutely adorable and her hair is a sight to behold. It was fun eating with people who understand when you have to get up during dinner because your baby is spitting up, or fussing and don't mind the loud noises their various bodily functions make.












Seeing them next to one another really made me appreciate just how big Judah's head is.

Judah did his best to impress Gemma by blowing lots of bubbles, and she sort of tried to hold his hand, although he didn't really get the hint.

Vacation!!

We're in Charleston, enjoying some vacation before my new job starts.

Photos to come later!!